When Paul McGregor's dad tried to take his own life, it
changed Paul's worldview forever. Of course he hadn't seen it coming, and so all
his old certainties dissolved and he struggled to cope. Paul's dad eventually recovered
in hospital and went home, and it seemed as though things could now finally
start to improve.
But then a few months later, tragedy struck. Paul's dad made
a second attempt on his life, walking in front of a lorry. He died instantly.
In order to distract himself from his grief, Paul began to
overwork himself and chase "success." He found himself in a dark place,
suffering from depression and fearing that he'd follow in his dad's footsteps.
How could he, as a man, show his vulnerability?
Up Man Down is
Paul's tale of recovery. It also explores what it means to be a man in today's
society. How do you cry, how do you express emotion, and how do you admit
you're struggling, when everything you've been taught tells you to "man
up" and get on with it?
Paul McGregor is a mental health advocate, author and Founder of a Men's Fashion Magazine. In 2009, Paul lost his Dad to suicide. It came as a shock to all as there were no warning signs, and at at 19, Paul personally struggled to deal with it. He overworked, chased"success" and distracted himself from the grief. So shortly after his Dad's suicide, Paul too found himself in a dark place, suffering with depression and fearing he'd follow in his Dad's footsteps. Luckily he found a way to recovery, and now runs a successful online men's fashion magazine. Paul has also been featured on GQ and The Huffington Post and creates daily content spreading awareness around mental health. Paul is a strong believer that we shouldn't be ashamed of our stories, we should let them inspire others. He's also married to his wonderful wife Amy, has two lovely children, but is still terrible at DIY.